Car Troubles

Well my drive to work was fun, hit an ice patch on the way to work, spun out and hit the center rail of the road. Mostly have aesthetic damage on my car, but my lights are borked and so is my bumper cover. Kinda shook me up though, but I went into super control mode, and guided my spin as best I could, I think I did a pretty good job. But yeah, didn't get to work thanks to this though, couldn't even get there.

This week has really been a whole bunch of crap, I miss tons of shifts thanks to being sick, and now this happens on the day I can ACTUALLY work. Fucking bullshit week.

Sick Sucks

So I have one of the nastiest combinations of yuck going on in my body these past two days. I am feverish, with head sweats regularly, nauseous whenever I eat or drink anything (water is the least bothersome though), my nose will fill up to the point of the inability to breathe, and then the next minute it decides to empty out and be so dry my nose bleeds. This is the epitome of suck, my stomach is bothering me and I cannot breathe properly without being in some sort of pain. What the hell did I catch, don't know what it is, but damned if it doesn't suck balls.

Bleh, I feel like I'm going to hurl, and a headache is also forming every little bit.

Bleh.

Wishing it were May

Yknow, they say time flies when your having fun, and while I am having fun I wish it would fly faster, because I want it to be may. May is when I am moving to Washington, and I am really looking forward to it to be honest, I really want it to happen. In general its going to be a good move for my life, and I am always one to embrace change for the better.

Idk, Iowa is just so boring, and while I have friends here, and I love them all, I need to do this for me. I hate to leave them all behind, I have met some great people, and made some great progress in my life. The problem is I'm getting bored out of my mind and Video Gaming isn't interesting me as much anymore. My focus seems to be on tabletop gaming for the most part, I really wanna play more DND, Magic, and Warhammer, and I just cannot do those here on a regular basis.

So I am looking forward to being with my two friends I am moving in with out there, it will be nice to have the company and a DND group in house that can play more often than just once in a while. In general it will be nice to have them around, because while I have "roommates" here, the odd setup does some weird things for my emotional state. I am a complex girl, what can I say.

So for the next month, I will be working on getting my application into the new college, and find out what I am going to need to do to get that all situated. I will have to send them a whole new transcript from this college, and work on the transfer credits. Thankfully this semester I will be done with all of my Liberal Arts Core of my degree, and that pretty much transfers universally. It should not be too hard, but it is still something on my list of crap to do. Also eventually I need to contact the Olive Garden in Spokane, and setup my transfer as soon as I possibly can. That will take a load off my shoulders when I do that, because once the school and work stuff are set, its just a matter of moving. Hopefully I will get it all done soon so that when may does come, I will be ready and rearing to go, just load up the truck and go.

Wish me luck everyone.

Betrayal

Gotta love when someone you thought loved you completely betrays you and won't even give you the common decency to tell you why. So a friend of mine, I have found out, has been ignoring my texts, because the last two times we talked I was on one of my superhorny moments and it made her uncomfortable. I understand that, I can get pretty bad some days, and I feel bad about that, but at least fucking tell me. I mean when this is someone that you have tried to show love and affection for for years, and then just because of a few times ignores you. This is like the biggest form of betrayal for me, I mean if she had told me it was making her uncomfortable, and I ignored that then I totally get that. But no, she doesn't even bother to tell me this, and just leaves me wondering if she even gives a shit about me anymore.

Things like this really hurt, because I try my best to dedicate myself to my friends, show them affection, love, and understanding. Sure I fuck up now and again, and I try to make up for it, I mean we aren't fucking perfect, but I expect those close to me to show me at least some general respect enough to tell me when I've done something wrong. I mean this really hurt, because this basically told me "I don't respect you enough, nor do I care enough about you to tell you you did something that bothered me, so I'm going to ignore you because of something you didn't know you did.". It is total fucking bullshit.

I mean you don't do that to someone you love, you don't treat them like that. I mean when I found out about this all I could do was cry, it felt like my heart had been ripped out and stomped on like a useless piece of shit. Most of the times I have texted her I am just reaching out and trying not to feel so alone, but apparently my feelings don't mean anything to her, she is just content to ignore me and make me wonder what the fuck I did wrong. At least now I know what kind of person she is, and why she has not been talking to me.

Fucking Bitch...

Warhammer Modelling Tools

Well I got my full set of tools and paints and I am ready to go with making my Tyranid army, I also picked up a brood of warriors to go with it today. So yeah, I have a decent start to my Tyranid Army, some good tools to work with, I'll just get a tacklebox to keep all the stuff in nice and safe for when I am not using it. Hopefully I'll find one that fits the bamboo thingie that holds my paint brushes, I should be able to find one pretty easy that fits my needs.

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So I should get started with my army soon, this is what I have so far:

1 Carnifex (this will become a Tervigon)

1 Box Hormagaunts

1 Box Termagaunts

3 Tyranid Warriors

I think I have a decent start, and they will be stone carapaced (with crystals growing out of them), and magma skinned tyranid. I am really looking forward to the finished product and I think it will look amazing.

Tell me what you all think