Monday, May 24, 2010

I has a Chris

So on my trip back I picked up my boyfriend, and I have some nice alone time with him before we grab his other roomies to move them here. Its been nice to cuddle up and have my own time with him, makes me a happy woman.

Also I told my brother about my being trans and he took it wonderfully, which is how I pretty much thought it was going to happen. My brother is a reasonable human being who cares about me, he doesn't want to rule my life like my father seems to want to do. Either way my brother is just happy to be my sibling, and to always be my friend.

So life goes well in the life of me, as a Musician, as a Pagan, as a Woman.

Blessed Be

Thursday, May 13, 2010



lol, Its silly I know, but I really had to say this because I am excited about it. I just checked out my grades for this last semester and I got all B's which makes me really happy because that bodes well for my GPA. I thought I was going to get a C on one of them, but surprise surprise, I still got a B on Group Piano which I am totally excited about.

-does her little dance-

Just had to say that...

Blessed Be

I Feel Cute Today

So last night I went over to my friend Bekky's dorm for some general hang out time and some overall girlishness, it was fun. Essentially we are in the same ball park of size, other than the fact of her large breasts, and I was trying on some of her clothes. It was over all a fun time, and I got to feel really girlie and cute for a while, and got to go home with some of them hehe.

She gave me a Red T-shirt, a pair of Grey Corduroy Pants, a pair of Plaid Shorts, and a cute Sun-dress. So I feel super cute, I am wearing the pants and the t-shirt, and it is a good feeling I have to say. Soonish I will be getting more clothing from good-will, when I get more money, but this is a wonderful start and I like feeling cute.

So here is just another step closer to living my life, As a Musician, As a Pagan, As a Woman...

Blessed Be

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Out at work....kinda

Well it has come out today that I have a boyfriend at work, and this is a good thing because I am the one who let it out. I am sick of hiding things so I am slowly going to let things about my life come out so I don't feel like a liar. Grant you now most of these people will think I'm gay because of this, and while they are half right, still its not quite there. Most of them thought I was gay anyway so it really isn't a change of pace, hell when I was talking about going out with someone and had not mentioned gender yet, one of them was asking about Chris and referring to him as he before she even knew the gender. This tells me she thought I was gay to begin with, and you know I really do not care what they think, I am just sick of hiding things and having to watch what I say for fear of something little getting out.

So this is a good thing, now I do not have to worry about as many things, and as far as I am concerned soonish I will be able to let out that I am trans. So at least I am having some progress at work, as a Musician, as a Pagan, as a Woman.

Blessed Be

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Trip and a Violin

Well here in a few weeks, around the time of my birthday, I am going to visit my parents for a multitude of reasons. I am looking forward to this trip, as well as not looking forward to this trip, its an oddly complex set of emotions. I mean I love seeing my parents, but always when I do it brings up complicated emotions. So there are good and bad things about this trip.

The Good:

Well first off my father is giving me one of his cars to replace my ford which has been going downhill for the past 2-3 years. I mean it still runs, but there is a good chance it is not going to be doing that for much longer. The car may not be much younger than my ford, but it was garage kept and well kept by a good owner for ten years. It was well treated so it is still in fairly good shape despite a few small hiccups.

Next my father is also giving me a new violin, it is one he found on craigslist for a very good price. It is an eighty year old violin from Japan, and it is apparently in very good shape and has a nice mellow soft sound to it, which would be good. My violin has a very ballzy, projecting, and loud sound, which I love, but it will be nice to have another that has a more quiet sound for appropriate pieces. I am looking forward to that greatly, because it is just more ways for me to musically experiment.

Lastly I am getting a bike for use in town, which is awesome.

The Bad:

My dad is still in denial over me being trans, and it just doesn't seem to be going anywhere, and my breasts are becoming harder and harder to hide. I might just tape the nipples down so it stops poking out so much, I don't need my dad to flip out on me when I'm so far from home. I have a feeling it will just be awkward soon, I am planning on going full time some time in august if I can. I have a feeling he will not deal with this well.

I want to tell my brother though while I am down there, let him know I'm trans. I'll prolly take him for a walk around town away from my dad, so my dad doesn't butt in and cause a problem. My brother I am fairly certain will deal with it well, despite his similarities to my father, he is a much more progressive person. My brother loves me, I know that, and I have a feeling he will be fine with it. I just have to get him away from my father.

But I guess this is all a part of living my life as a Musician, as a Pagan, as a Woman.

Blessed Be