Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Trip and a Violin

Well here in a few weeks, around the time of my birthday, I am going to visit my parents for a multitude of reasons. I am looking forward to this trip, as well as not looking forward to this trip, its an oddly complex set of emotions. I mean I love seeing my parents, but always when I do it brings up complicated emotions. So there are good and bad things about this trip.

The Good:

Well first off my father is giving me one of his cars to replace my ford which has been going downhill for the past 2-3 years. I mean it still runs, but there is a good chance it is not going to be doing that for much longer. The car may not be much younger than my ford, but it was garage kept and well kept by a good owner for ten years. It was well treated so it is still in fairly good shape despite a few small hiccups.

Next my father is also giving me a new violin, it is one he found on craigslist for a very good price. It is an eighty year old violin from Japan, and it is apparently in very good shape and has a nice mellow soft sound to it, which would be good. My violin has a very ballzy, projecting, and loud sound, which I love, but it will be nice to have another that has a more quiet sound for appropriate pieces. I am looking forward to that greatly, because it is just more ways for me to musically experiment.

Lastly I am getting a bike for use in town, which is awesome.

The Bad:

My dad is still in denial over me being trans, and it just doesn't seem to be going anywhere, and my breasts are becoming harder and harder to hide. I might just tape the nipples down so it stops poking out so much, I don't need my dad to flip out on me when I'm so far from home. I have a feeling it will just be awkward soon, I am planning on going full time some time in august if I can. I have a feeling he will not deal with this well.

I want to tell my brother though while I am down there, let him know I'm trans. I'll prolly take him for a walk around town away from my dad, so my dad doesn't butt in and cause a problem. My brother I am fairly certain will deal with it well, despite his similarities to my father, he is a much more progressive person. My brother loves me, I know that, and I have a feeling he will be fine with it. I just have to get him away from my father.

But I guess this is all a part of living my life as a Musician, as a Pagan, as a Woman.

Blessed Be

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