New Lolita Dress

So my petticoat came in for my lolita dress and I finally took pictures of it, and I feel like such a pretty princess right now.  Seriously, I feel all super pretty and I love this dress so much, so amazing.  I don't ever wanna take this dress off.


So YAY...

Just Bloggin

Just kinda blogging and writing some stuff down because I can, and because I am bored out of my mind.


Warhammer army is coming along wonderfully, I love how it is turning out, and getting a lot of praise from my 40k mentors Cami and Jenn.  Both of your encouragement is really helping a lot and I love how everything is turning out.  Right now I need to paint the scything talons to look like they are crystals, and once that is done all I have left is carapace touch-up and that brood will be finished.  I will link below this paragraph the link to my album of pictures of the work in progress of all this.  So take a look and tell me what you think.


http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=25867&id=100001728162489&l=266d00cbac


As for other things, mostly I am just getting ready for my move to Washington, which is coming closer and closer, for which I am super excited.  I'll get to be with my partners, which will be just absolutely wonderful, and tons of gaming, coastal state so I can visit beaches in summer.  There will be skiing in winter and in general it will be a whole lot of fun.  I am going to miss being around all my friends here in Iowa, but this will be a good move for my life and I am looking forward to it.  Thankfully all my close friends are all internet dorks like me and I can still keep in touch like I have with all my High School friends and the like.  So I am not really leaving them behind, merely relocating, but my feelings for my friends and the caring I have for them will not change.


-hugs for all her friends-




So hopefully my GM works tomorrow and I will give him the phone number and address of the Olive Garden I will be transferring to, so he can get in touch.  Hopefully I will have everything setup by the time move day comes, and I hope everything on my parent's end works out too so they can get the hell out of Tennessee.  I will set my last day at this Olive Garden for the second Sunday in April, which will allow me to focus on my music, and my school, so that I can end this semester on a high note, and fix all the damage I did to my GPA last semester.


Also I will be selling a lot of my furnature, my desks specifically will be the ones sold so that I take up as little room in the moving truck as humanly possible.  I might media mail my books and the like over to my partners so those will be a few less boxes to take along with me in the moving truck.  We'll see how that goes, but looking on the USPS main website it seems that they are pretty cheap, with a maximum price of $30 for a 70 pound max package.  I can afford to send my books like that, so I think I will just for the sake of saving a few hundred on a smaller truck.  I will probably try to take some boxes home from work for carrying of books tomorrow, just so that I have stuff to put all my books in, and then I will just tear up my falling apart book cases.  I will keep the Pathfinder books unpacked until move day because Steven, James, and I are using them to play lately, so no use packing them.  It's only four books, and I can afford to pack those late and just take them with me, I mean its just four books.


So life is overall good, just a lot to do in the up and coming months.  Wish me luck oh few readers of mine, love you all.

Weddings and Shoulders

So tomorrow I go to Kota and dev's wedding, and I just cannot wait to see this, because its been a long time coming. I am really happy for them, they should have been married years ago, and I am happy they are finally in a place where they can. It may be a small ceremony, but thats pretty meaningful to me, going to be tons of friends around, people we all care about. They deserve this, so I am pretty fraking excited.

On the other hand had to miss work today because I did something to my shoulder and I have no idea what. All I know is I was fine before work yesterday, but during the shift something happened, I have no idea what, and now my shoulder is killing me. Went to take off my undershirt at the end of the night, and when I did my shoulder just exploded in pain, ugh. It only got worse by the next day, ie today, and I had to call in or it would have been bad. I mean I was woken up two hours early to my shoulder exploding again, I cannot lift anything. So whats on the agenda for today, watching stuff, relaxing, and giving my shoulder a break to heal so it doesn't get worse.

I have been missing a ton of work days this year, and I am not happy about it. I mean I don't like my job, but when I miss a shift it really irks me. I have always prided myself on being to work no matter what, only calling out when I absolutely have to. Sadly this year that has been the case, first it was sickness, then the car, now my shoulder. This is not a good year for my body, it does not like me, lol.

Car Troubles

Well my drive to work was fun, hit an ice patch on the way to work, spun out and hit the center rail of the road. Mostly have aesthetic damage on my car, but my lights are borked and so is my bumper cover. Kinda shook me up though, but I went into super control mode, and guided my spin as best I could, I think I did a pretty good job. But yeah, didn't get to work thanks to this though, couldn't even get there.

This week has really been a whole bunch of crap, I miss tons of shifts thanks to being sick, and now this happens on the day I can ACTUALLY work. Fucking bullshit week.

Sick Sucks

So I have one of the nastiest combinations of yuck going on in my body these past two days. I am feverish, with head sweats regularly, nauseous whenever I eat or drink anything (water is the least bothersome though), my nose will fill up to the point of the inability to breathe, and then the next minute it decides to empty out and be so dry my nose bleeds. This is the epitome of suck, my stomach is bothering me and I cannot breathe properly without being in some sort of pain. What the hell did I catch, don't know what it is, but damned if it doesn't suck balls.

Bleh, I feel like I'm going to hurl, and a headache is also forming every little bit.

Bleh.

Wishing it were May

Yknow, they say time flies when your having fun, and while I am having fun I wish it would fly faster, because I want it to be may. May is when I am moving to Washington, and I am really looking forward to it to be honest, I really want it to happen. In general its going to be a good move for my life, and I am always one to embrace change for the better.

Idk, Iowa is just so boring, and while I have friends here, and I love them all, I need to do this for me. I hate to leave them all behind, I have met some great people, and made some great progress in my life. The problem is I'm getting bored out of my mind and Video Gaming isn't interesting me as much anymore. My focus seems to be on tabletop gaming for the most part, I really wanna play more DND, Magic, and Warhammer, and I just cannot do those here on a regular basis.

So I am looking forward to being with my two friends I am moving in with out there, it will be nice to have the company and a DND group in house that can play more often than just once in a while. In general it will be nice to have them around, because while I have "roommates" here, the odd setup does some weird things for my emotional state. I am a complex girl, what can I say.

So for the next month, I will be working on getting my application into the new college, and find out what I am going to need to do to get that all situated. I will have to send them a whole new transcript from this college, and work on the transfer credits. Thankfully this semester I will be done with all of my Liberal Arts Core of my degree, and that pretty much transfers universally. It should not be too hard, but it is still something on my list of crap to do. Also eventually I need to contact the Olive Garden in Spokane, and setup my transfer as soon as I possibly can. That will take a load off my shoulders when I do that, because once the school and work stuff are set, its just a matter of moving. Hopefully I will get it all done soon so that when may does come, I will be ready and rearing to go, just load up the truck and go.

Wish me luck everyone.

Betrayal

Gotta love when someone you thought loved you completely betrays you and won't even give you the common decency to tell you why. So a friend of mine, I have found out, has been ignoring my texts, because the last two times we talked I was on one of my superhorny moments and it made her uncomfortable. I understand that, I can get pretty bad some days, and I feel bad about that, but at least fucking tell me. I mean when this is someone that you have tried to show love and affection for for years, and then just because of a few times ignores you. This is like the biggest form of betrayal for me, I mean if she had told me it was making her uncomfortable, and I ignored that then I totally get that. But no, she doesn't even bother to tell me this, and just leaves me wondering if she even gives a shit about me anymore.

Things like this really hurt, because I try my best to dedicate myself to my friends, show them affection, love, and understanding. Sure I fuck up now and again, and I try to make up for it, I mean we aren't fucking perfect, but I expect those close to me to show me at least some general respect enough to tell me when I've done something wrong. I mean this really hurt, because this basically told me "I don't respect you enough, nor do I care enough about you to tell you you did something that bothered me, so I'm going to ignore you because of something you didn't know you did.". It is total fucking bullshit.

I mean you don't do that to someone you love, you don't treat them like that. I mean when I found out about this all I could do was cry, it felt like my heart had been ripped out and stomped on like a useless piece of shit. Most of the times I have texted her I am just reaching out and trying not to feel so alone, but apparently my feelings don't mean anything to her, she is just content to ignore me and make me wonder what the fuck I did wrong. At least now I know what kind of person she is, and why she has not been talking to me.

Fucking Bitch...